What's so bad about wandering until you find your way?

Hey everyone,

Rachel and I had a discussion tonight that had me thinking. We were discussing whether or not we were going to make it up here for years to come. For me, its easy to say "well, pending I have a job I will stay" because my job is based on a grant each year for Head Start. But.. when I really think about it, it comes down to life.. real life. If I decide to go back to WI I don't think there will be much for me there that makes me happy... truly happy. If I should decide to go back, I will begin the job hunting process all over again, which in itself is the worst thing to go through as an adult. Also, I have to think about what is really there for me. Yes, I have great friends and great family... but who's to say that you have to live by them to make your life complete. I can always visit.. and be excited about visiting! It's hard for me ... I don't know which way I want to go in life. I know I want to teach.. and being here I have all of that. Isn't that what is most important? Unless, I suddenly fall in love with some random person in WI and get married and start a family ... but, who's to say that that will happen? And... who's to say that THAT even matters? (oh the possibilities)

There are so many questions in life and I feel like I'm wandering through the days trying to find my way. I know that someday it will all make perfect sense, but until that day I think I should be where I am most happy. I like to be on my own, with the wind in my hair and not a damn thing to worry about besides lesson plans and what to make for my  next meal. I feel lucky and blessed to have a life such as this one. Not everyone gets to wander and find their way... not everyone gets to think about things like this. Some people might find themselves searching for an answer but I don't think I need to know the answer right now. I think for now I need to live in the present. Enjoying my time as Teacher Sammy and living each day as it comes.

I read a quote from a Robert Frost Poem that made complete sense to me:
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."

If you had to choose between a life you knew and a life "less traveled by" one of which you were not so sure of, which would you choose? 

I think in this life I am meant to take my own road, create my own path and explore my options. Who's to say that things will fall together? And, what if they don't? Either way, I'll find my OWN way to be happy :)


Until next time,
Sammy (the one who has all the time in the world to think and reason my way through life) 
:) love you all